Tuesday 29 November 2011

A sojourn of learning...

Today, in this entry, i would like to share my experience handling the course i am teaching. I am teaching a course that many of my students or rather most students find it to be the toughest and dub it as a 'killer course'.

And because of that, i try various ways, to make my class enjoyable, with good learning experience and full of knowledge. Wisdom can be earned with experience but really, i give my all so as to make the 'killer course' becomes less harsh in its reality. I don't want my students to feel bored. So, a lot of humors, stories of life experiences and anecdotes must be continuously thought of. Alhamdulillah, many times i see happy, satisfied faces leaving my class. Only thing is, they are all scared of the examniation. But of course! Who wouldn't? Even aspiring doctors have to work very hard just to pass this course. A lot of memorizing, understanding and a lot of structures and mechanisms need to be learnt.

And today, is my last day of class with two groups of students. I must say, i am so happy. That means, i will have a day free of classes which i am going to use fully to mark about 300 students' assignment already stacked neatly on my table. Wonder when will i be able to finish marking them all. But I told my students, if they want their assignment back, please collect from me and make me correct in front of them. huhuhu...few of them have actually took up my suggestion and they received immediate comment. Still i wonder if i have made the right decision.

But am happy when the students are happy. BUT...that does not mean i can be bowed to acceptance. No students can manipulate me. Whatever marks they get, is because they deserve to get them, high or low. And i teach them to be honest as well. Honest to themselves. My class tests are done online. I don't monitor the time. I give them ample time to prepare and ample time for them to finish the test. Am i doing this right? Am not sure...but i pray that my sincerety in my work will be paid off everytime, when students graduate after a sojourn of learning.

Saturday 26 November 2011

rindu...betul ke...?

Betul ke bila hati kita selalu berdebar menandakan ada orang ingat kita? rindu kita? 
Betul ke, bila kita teringat seseorang, orang itu juga akan turut merasa?
Betul ke, utk hilangkan rindu, pakaian terpakai seseorang yang tidak berbasuh boleh hilangkan rindu?


Tapi...rindu tu apa?


Perasaan kasih dan keinginan untuk bersama? 
Perasaan memerlukan?
Perasaan yang gambarkan kasih sayang?


Rindu iu menyakitkan? 


Pelikkan rindu tu?



Sunday 20 November 2011

Berkawan biar seribu

I suka dengan kata2 itu. Kerana itu lah i berada dalam laman sosial sesawang. Nak berkawan..

Tapi tu la..masa awal2 je i beriye-iye kat laman sosial tu. Sekarang dah malas la pulak. Macam manapun, kawan2 yang i kenal kat situ, ok la...memang ada yang jadi kawan rapat i. Sama2 kongsi pengalaman hidup.

Bagi i, berkawan ni tidak harus hanya pada satu kelompok tertentu sahaja. Berkawan lah dengan sesiapa saja, yang penting kita berniat jujur berkawan. Berkawan dengan apa bangsa sekalipun supaya luas pengetahuan kita. Kadang saya dapati, bila kita peruntukan persahabatan hanya pada bangsa kita sendiri, kita tidak kembangkan pengetahuan kita. Belajar menerima pandangan berbeza dari berbagai ragam manusia...tentunya akan mengkayakan pengetahuan kita.

I berkawan dengan beberapa kawan dari bangsa lain. Sambil i berkawan, kami bertukar2 pendapat dan bila i dapati ada kekeliruan tentang sesuatu yang biasa bagi kita, orang Melayu dan agama kita, Islam, saya cuba sebaik mungkin menerangkan supaya mereka tidak memandang serong pada kita dan tidak tersalah mengerti. Alhamdulillah, setakat ini, kawan2 i kebanyakannya memberi i pelbagai pengalaman dan pengetahuan walaupun tak pernah bersua muka.

Dan dari kawan i juga la menimbulkan hobi baru...kumpul fridge magnet...ada sesiapa yang ada minat sama dengan i?

Saturday 19 November 2011

Nice rhyme

A friend of mine wrote this to me:

" mula2 bergurau, lama2 terpukau,
  mula2 berminat, lama2 tersemat.."

it was not specifically written for me but he shared this with all friends as well through our yahoogroup mail. It was surprisingly so apt in its meaning...
i mean here, we may find ourselves liking someone's way of saying things...that person may only try to make some jokes..having fun...with us, but we like the way he / she does it...so eventually, we may get spellbound by that personality...and so...we may really like that person...and will not be so surprising if that person becomes someone we really, really like and so remains in our heart. Touching our heart...probably unintentionally but touch us nonetheless.

Have you ever experience that? i have...

Don't easily judge others!

Hi semua...i found this from a friend and thought why not share with you. Do read and then think about it.

Sometimes people are quick
to judge others,
when what you see
isn't really all there.

People have different moods
different personalities
different desires,
so what you're really seeing
is only a mask,
of what others want you to see.

On the inside,
we all have the same desires,
a kind smile,
a warm heart,
a tender soul,
all wanting to be reached
on the inside.

We're all not perfect,
only human,
we'll have ups and downs
like a merry-go-round,
we'll make many mistakes.

But just remember,
the next time you see a person,
do not judge what’s on
the outside,
we could be having a bad day.

Try and see on the inside,
and you will see,
the kind smile,
the warm heart,
the tender soul,
reaching out....


Copyright © Sherri Emily Avery

In my opinion, we will be a much better person when we refrain ourselves from thinking bad of others. It certainly takes time to fall in love and be loved, as a friend told me once.

Have luvly weekend my friends!


Thursday 17 November 2011

Rindu itu indah..

Perasaan merindui bukan lah sesuatu yang aneh kepada sesiapapun. Rindu bukan sahaja kepada sesama manusia, rindu boleh sahaja kepada apa sahaja yang pernah kita alami sepanjang kita menjalani kehidupan. Dan i sedang merindu masa ini. Sangat2 merindu...

Dan bila rindu... aduhhh... jiwa rasa tak tenang...ingin sahaja rasanya kembali bersama melalui detik itu, saat itu, waktu itu, ketika itu... mengapa agaknya tidak dirakam saat indah seperti itu supaya i boleh mainkan berkali2 bila sahaja rindu ini melanda?

Apa yang pasti, saat indah, detik manis yang pernah i lalui itu, sentiasa bermain di fikiran i...menghibur i di kala diri merasa resah, di kala kehidupan kini seolah menghimpit diri...

Dan bila rindu... kenangan jua la yang i ada bagi menghilangkan rasa rindu ini...

Ish! jangan la fikir bukan2...

i rindu macam2 tau...rindu pada kehidupan masa i kecik...walaupun susah tapi i rasa seronok pula bila mengenang semula...tak mungkin akan dialami semula saat i memanjat pokok bacang depan rumah nenek, goyang2 dahan pokok sampai berjatuhan buah2 yang masak, atau ketika memanjat pokok limau kasturi dan duduk atas pokok sambil makan buah limau yang masam tu...atau masa ikut mak cari rebung, kena sengat oleh lebah, adoiii...atau waktu mengutip siput sedut di tebing sungai atau masa abang dan adik2 lelaki i buli i dengan kerja2 di rumah...membasuh pakaian, memasak...macam2 la..

sungguhpun kehidupan masa itu serba kekurangan...tapi...bila dewasa begini, i rasakan, kenangan masa kecil itu cukup indah dan i rindu suasana waktu itu...saat i baru belajar erti kehidupan yang mendewasakan i.

eh! dia yang i rindu...tahu ke dia???


Monday 14 November 2011

Make up your mind to succeed

Okay, wanna share this knowledge i gained from reading Reader's Digest, May 2009. I found it interesting and worth sharing with you.

This is based on research done by a psychologist named Carol Dweck who studied for 40 years on how people handle failure.

She said:
At work, instead of letting salary, benefits and status define job satisfaction, we should ask ourselves if we are still learning while doing the job. If we answered 'YES' then we are fortunate because we have a job that encourages growth mind-set. Growth mind-set is a category whereby we believe that talent is not heaven-sent and effort and learning make everything possible. People with this mind-set finds failure as opportunity and not an insult. Because of this, we can reassess situation, adjust and try again.

Ermmm...experiential learning??

And i like this:
When feeling down, we always think that's just the way we are (which is what i usually think anyway). So the advice is instead of thinking ourselves as a failed end-product, we must view ourselves as having a temporarily derailed work in progress.

Hmmmm...interesting eh?

So my friends, the take away point is......KNOW WHAT U WANT....N WORK FOR IT!

Sunday 13 November 2011

I am an actress

Hidup ini penuh cabaran kan? Serba serbi mencabar...bila kita rasa seolah kita sudah terlepas dari cubaan...rupanya ada lagi yang datang...lepas satu, satu...

Kadang rasa seolah tak sanggup untuk meneruskan semua ini. Rasa letih mencuba, berusaha...

Apa kan daya..selagi kita hidup, kita tak harus berputus asa kan..

Bila orang kata dunia ini hanya sebuah pentas kehidupan...dan kita ini melakonkan watak kita masing2...memang betul la tu... setiap kita memainkan peranan kita sehingga Yang Maha Pencipta memberhentikan lakonan kita.

Jika ada yang berkata, dia tidak berlakon, itu watak sebenar dia...i kata dia bohong. Sebab bila kita menjadi diri kita sendiri, akan ada yang tidak suka pada kita. Sebab diri kita adalah diri yang 'careless' yang tidak ambil peduli orang lain. U tak percaya cakap i ni? U fikir2 kan la...bayangkan la bila kita ego...ramai ke suka dengan kita? Sikap ego kita tu la sikap sebenar kita kan?

Anyway, why did i say all this? Because i think, i am one of the best actress in this world...a talent no one has seen because i covered myself well...

Wednesday 9 November 2011

Aku, Dia dan Kenangan

Kalau tak silap, ni tajuk lagu kot kan...hmmm..lagu sapa ek? lagu dulu2 ni...tapi mungkin i silap kot..cuma i rasa macam ada lagu ni..kumpulan Flybaits. Masa i kecik2 dulu, cukup hafal semua lagu2 Flybaits, Alleycats, Headwind...sekarang ni, lidah dah keras kot. Tak pernah ingat lirik.

I dapati ramai kawan2 sekolah i masih mengingati lagu2 ketika muda remaja. i ingat jugak. lagu dulu2 sedap didengar. lirik pun puitis. lagu2 sekarang ni dah banyak jenis sangat. macam manapun i tetap suka. i suka muzik. i suka dengar lagu. i suka lirik2 indah sesuatu lagu dan selalu tertanya2, maca mana idea buat lagu tu datang kepada pencipta ye? adakah melalui pengalaman hidup?

Apa2pun...entry i kali ni, mmg la sesuatu yang semua orang alami rasanya. Ada aje kenangan manis bersama ... sape2 la...boleh jadi kawan lama, pakwe lama, makwe lama, kekasih lama...sume la yg lama2 tu...

i ada jugak kenangan. banyak yg pahit dari manis. tapi i jadikan yg pahit tu manis sebahagiannya. sebab, yg pahit tu la yg menjadikan i spt diri i skrg. so tak boleh la pahit saja kan...kena la i jadikan ia manis.

kenangan akan sentiasa terbina selagi kita hidup. betul tak? dan macam i pernah kata dulu...kebanyakan kenangan tidak mudah dilupakan...

mudah2an 'dia' dalam hidup i suatu ketika itu...menjalani kehidupan lebih baik dan bahagia...

Monday 7 November 2011

Arghhhhh...emosi!!!

Mengapa ada ketika ada jiwa yang tak tenteram?
I hate this part of me that sometimes go mushy mushy...making my brain like goes to the drain.
Where is the strong person i always have been all this time?
Where has she gone to?
Especially now when i need my faculty intact...mind, body and soul...
You know, i used to only talk to Him...asking His help...asking for His guidance and no others...

Being a woman is not easy my friends.
We are very much affected by our surrounding, hormones and emotions.
We say that we are strong but we work hard to proof that we are strong.
We are expected to be compliant, supliant...

...unlike man...their physical beings always indicate their strong nature. and their emotions are well masked. I guess, it is even harder for men...for they have to pretend strong even when deep in their heart, they are just like women...in need of emotional support...is it true man? 

Anyway...

Women are said to be superwoman when we are able to handle all...home, family, work, financial...but of coz we are! But then..i think this so called 'SUPERWOMAN' name calling is only given by women themselves...men don't see this quality in women do they? and can men do the same?

Pedas menyengat ni mak!

hehehe...
SALAM EIDUL ADHA...masih sempat lagi kan menerima ucapan itu? Mudah2an kawan2 i kat sini semua hepi bercuti dan menyambut hari raya...ada yang buat korban?

I beraya sakan juga...macam jugak raya Aidilfitri...makan kat rumah mak, then singgah rumah sis-in-law, then rumah uncle, pas tu rumah mother-in-law, n finally...singgah rumah cousin hubby kat Gombak! Sakan kan? So 10 Zulhijjah..perut i kenyang....then terima tetamu....kena la memasak pulak kannn...nyway, tetamu bawa rezeki kan. I mmg berbesar hati bila ada yang sudi dtg ke rumah. Penat la sikit tp berbaloi bila tetamu senyum kenyang...

Nak tau entry i cam tu? Pasallll...mak i masak semuanya serba pedas!

Cam biasa, rendang daging memang mak tak tinggal...kali ini, rendang mak...mak ai...terbakar mulut makan...lagi satu dish yang i and anak2 suka...sambal goreng jawa. Alahai..patut i snap picture kan? Sambal goreng jawa ni, campuran tahu, kentang, tahu kering, suun, tempe, kalau ada hati ke, pedal ke...leh je campur...goreng dengan hirisan cili padi, boh kicap, boh santan sikit...wallla! marvelous! Tapi kali ini..adeiii...lidah terbakar la mak!

Sehari sebelum g rumah mak, anak2 i bercakap dgn mak i...so mak i bagitau la,'kali ni nenek masak semua lebih pedas dari biasa..' So ingatkn main2...rupa2nya..sungguh bagai dikata...sampai adik i sendiri tak tahan la...berkali ke bilik termenung...hahahaha

I ingat nak share photos tapi...segan la pulak. Len kali je la ye...adios!