Yes! I berjaya!

aduhhhh.....berhari2 berniat nak update blog...hari ni i paksa diri i...curi sikit masa yang dipinjamkan...

okay, apa i nak tulis ye? sikit pasal kesibukan i la... hmmm...eh! citer pasal apa yang i rasa i happy sangat dan beri pengalaman berbeza kat i...

i telah ditugaskan untuk menghasilkan satu montaj. i memang haru biru la tau pasal montaj ni. berhari2 fikirkan storyboard. storyboard punnnn tak berapa nak tau...siap i tanya kawan sana sini. Kawan siap bagi laman web untuk i baca...tapi pada akhirnya, i berjaya juga buat storyboard. bila dibentang kepada colleagues dan bos, dorang okay. so, satu step dah lepas.

next step, kumpul bahan...puas la minta sana sini bahan soft copy...i pulak pada masa sama ada tanggung jawab lain..yang ad hoc dan hakiki. so akhirnya i kurang beri tumpuan kepada menghasilkan montaj walaupun i sepatutnya ikut tarikh-tarikh yang ditetapkan event manager. tiba2 je dah sampai tarikh i patut present the progress. Panik i jadinya...baru la i beri tumpuan sebab masa tu, lagi dua minggu sebelum event. masa sama, tugas hakiki dan ad hoc masih berterusan. lebih hebat, exam papers untuk disemak pun dah masuk...dateline, dua minggu juga...panik giler i jadinya.

akibatnya, ada hari2 yang i tak tidur malam...dan ada hari2 i kena ganti tidur...menunjukkan betapa 'pandainya' i mengatur masa...

so, setiap hari menjelang hari2 terakhir event dan due date markah peperiksaan harus dimuat naik ke sistem, i bekerja hampir siang malam...dan hujung minggu i, tiada cuti, i kerja round the clock...

masa hari bekerja pulak, sekejap i di pejabat, buat keje pejabat, konsultansi, training, pas tu lari ke studio tempat montaj dibina. Hampir setiap macam tu...

Tapi yang paling i cukup bangga dan sangat terhutang budi adalah staf teknikal yang bantu i buat montaj tu. Mereka dedicated, creative dan baik hati. Walaupun hakikatnya, itu adalah arahan tetapi bagi i, komitmen mereka memang terpuji. Sebelum semua bahan sampai kepada mereka, mereka dah create platfom berdasarkan storyboard i.

Bukan saja montaj kami kena sediakan, kami juga bertanggungjawab menghasilkan video sempena program / event yang dijadualkan berlangsung pada 31 Januari 2012. Big do for my department.

Bagi i, jika team teknikal ni tak commited, habis la i...

So, 4 hari sebelum program, i tayangkan apa yang kami dah buat. Banyak komen...komen membina dan mengajar i agar lebih teliti. Perubahan laaaaagi....keluh i. Staf teknikal yang bertanggungjawab tak boleh kata apa la, menurut perintah. Kena buat pembetulan dan penambahbaikan. Video wawancara bagaimanapun selesai dan sedang diedit.

Lagu / muzik untuk masuk ke video montaj i baru pilih pada hari 4. Baru download dari website. Itupun staf teknikal yang ajar i. Download pun 5 lagu je...antaranya satu lagu Kpop yang popular dan lagu dari Neneh Cherry...lagu yang berentak moden, hard beats...whatever...dance all in one.. Yang i tau, bos i kata, big bos suka lagu yg ada ciri futuristik? Hmmmm...

Sehari lagi ke event, montaj tak siap lagi. Staf terbabit duduk depan komputer iMac super sofisticated pada pandangan i dengan skrin besar dan all the right gadgets, dari awal pagi sampai la completion. I duduk sebelah dia...monitoring...suggesting. Hari itu adalah hari rehearsal event.

Pukul 2.45, bos i dah kol dari dewan bagitau, 'hurry up! big bos nak sampai dah...!' ooops! i dah risau sebab, staf teknikal masih lagi buat apa yang dia patut buat..i pun tak tau nak sebut apa. alaaaa...macam dah ada rumah tapi nak hias...cam tu la...

Pukul 3.30 baru setel semua bahan fully prepared to put together. Kami run the video, buat pembetulan itu la, ini la...dan bila dah puas hati, lagu yang dah pilih dimasukkan ke dalam video. Sebab masa lagu running dan video tak sama, kami mix dua lagu, starting lain sehingga satu bahagian cerita, dan kemudian di hujung cerita, masuk semula lagu pertama. Keseluruhan lagu Kpop tu digunakan dalam montaj.

Hasilnya? Voila!!! Sempat juga kami tambah elemen surprise dalam video montaj. I berkejar ke dewan dan tayangkan hasil...alhamdulillah...good review.

Dan hari ini, 31 Januari 2012, video montaj itu ditayangkan secara rasmi ke semua peserta event. Dan.....alhamdulillah...rata2 yang menyaksikan, puas hati...

Teknikal bukan kepandaian i...tapi yang buat i hepi sesangat...lagu2 yang i pilih kena dengan video montaj!!

Senyum meleret i tau...bos puji!

All in a day's work of Rozzana....

(hehehe...bahasa rojak i ni kalau pencinta bahasa baca...mau nangis dia..)

Alahai...sempat ke ni?

Itulah persoalan dalam kepala i...

Sebab...i terasa i tidak kecukupan masa...ini pun nak berblog..curi2 masa ...

Kenapa i tak kecukupan masa...hmmm..mungkin i tak pandai uruskan masa ... dalam minggu-minggu terakhir Januari 2012 ni, macam2 i kena buat...semua berkait dengan kerja. Bimbang rasanya sebab dalam minggu yang terakhir ini, semua due...sampai masa...buat itu..ini tak buat...buat ini..itu tak buat...terkejar2 i dibuatnya...

kata orang, set priority...tapi dalam kes i...semua jadi priority...schedule penuh..sampai sms Ella@K.Chik pun i lambat balas...FB pun jeling je...

dah lebih dua bulan tak pergi bersenam...aduhaiiiii...

malam ni...berjaga lagi marathon buat keje...dlm kepala bersusun satu satu perkara perlu dibuat...

apa2pun...selamat bercuti kawan2...

What is happening?

Hi! Remember about my last entry? About being strangers even after knowing my partner for more than 20 years?


Suprisingly, my exact thought about marriage institution nowadays is mirrored in the report of last two sunday's The Star. There was the report about how marriage nowadays does not last long..and the age of those seeking for separation is between 30s - 40s? Wow!


Really, life nowadays is full of challenges that many has fallen trapped to them and cannot even withstand the very sacred vow of marriage. And remembering a friend's comment about failed relationship / marriage...sometimes, we just have to take care for ourselves first before others including our children. I suppose, the reason given by my friend makes sense since, living together in such stressful situation never really benefited anybody, not even our children. Possibly can cause lot more damage too.


Recalling my own childhood experience, having troubled family did not do much good to me. I grew up feeling insecure and have inferiority complex behaviour. And wondering why life has to be cruel to me. And felt that there was not enough love to support me throughout my teenage year. But Alhamdulillah...He gives me strength and here i am...


What can we do to strenghten marriage institution? What does it take to make a marriage goes a long way? 

Honestly, there are more questions than answer...but one thing for sure, marriage is really a challenge, greater than political challenge. Needs a lot of understanding, give and take, and patience and perseverence...and BEST of LUCK to me...!!

Ombak Rindu

"i open my heart to you and if you feel claustrophobic staying in my heart, i never close the exit...."

"i have no fear of suffocation and i don't even know the exit door. i'll not leave you alone"

These are conversation between lovers. i read this and i thought 'wow!'

What can i say about these two lines...that one is willing to be hurt if the other one feels that he cannot continue with the relationship...need a way out. While the other half is responding equally strongly that despite of everything, he is happy and willing to risk himself rather than leaving the lover.

Such touching gestures and strong emotions, don't you think?

Like 'Ombak Rindu'...the movie...

Yes, i have watched the movie twice. I kind of enjoy it. But i watched twice because the first time, i did not get to finish watching and so watched second time until the ending.

I don't usually enjoy Malay films. I find many is quite boring and lack substance but some are good.

Did i cry watching 'Ombak Rindu'? Yeah...a bit...the song helped to put the right sad mood...the actors were good...knew their characters well and yes...good movie...ending is too good...

I remember reading another poignant, powerful love story: Badai Semalam. This was turned into theatre but unfortunately i did not get the chance to watch the theatre. That was one novel, i read and read and read and everytime, i cried. Wonder how was the theatre like...Did it get translated well into theatre?

Aaahhh..in the mood to talk about love stories...

Life is full of surprises...take each one as it comes and brave the challenges...at the end, good attitude prevails..

A stranger still?

I want to share this thought with you. It is something that has been in my mind for sometimes.

I think of my 20 years marriage after 6 years of 'friendship'. And so added into the 20 years of marriage, i actually knew my husband for 26 years! Is that not a long years to know someone?

I thought, with that many years, i know my husband well enough. Surprisingly, it is not. The years just went by...and there is always something new i discover about my husband. Even though the new discovery does not happen often but considering the number of years i spent my life with him, it is to me still amazing that the person i have been sharing my room with, is never really one you know totally well.

Sometimes i find the discovery is pleasant but there are times when i feel, i do not want to know.

When you were not yet married, everything looks nice, and you basically accept every faults of your partner. Then you get married. Then you discover more about your partner. For the first few months, you tell yourself, okay, this is a period of adjustment. And being deeply in love, every new faults are still acceptable. Right? And these are the years when the trials begin, either you can weather out the tribulations, the misunderstanding, the difficulties, together or...you just give up and say, 'i want out of this!' I guess this is what happen in many cases nowadays. We, women, become so independent, we follow the footsteps of the westerners...'unwed' ourselves.

Me? Hmmm...whenever there are difficulties, i always think back of the reason i chose my husband, how good he has been to me, and that everyone has some facets of self that may not be favorable but who am i to judge my partner badly when i myself, is full of weaknesses and faults?

So at the end, i decided that, take things as they are, adjust accordingly, take a good deep breath, pray hard and be my best self.

I think i read something like this somewhere...you are the mirror image of your partner...albeit the opposite one...and that, we are the complement of the other half? But sometimes...i do let myself wishing for the stars....

Akibat diet?

Tu la ... nak sgt berdiet kot...akibatnya perut kembung semacam je...

Sepatutnya tadi i pergi ke satu seminar di Boulevard Hotel dekat Midvalley tetapi disebabkan kesilapan teknikal, i lambat sampai...pas tu tetiba sakit perut .. Hellooooo...bukan sebab kena cari toilet tau..tapi sakit kembung...macam budak kecik pulak. Sampai nak berjalan pun susah...akhirnya i buat keputusan batalkan tujuan ke seminar, kena isi perut yang kosong...padahal sebelum bertolak ke Midvalley dah belasah satu bar coklat.

Suami i yang menemankan i tolong carikan i air halia, sementara i pulak belasah semangkuk tom yum..kena makan benda panas kann...selepas tu..baru la lega...angin pun bergerak baik je..ke atas..ke bawah...alahai....tapi memang lega betul..alhamdulillah...

Bila dah lega...terus pergi MPH Bookstores...cari buku...pas tu...hehehehe...shopping mata..tersangkut pulak kat kasut..aduhhhhh....terbang RM....

Itulah alkisah hari Sabtu i, 7 Januari 2012!